但愿他是最后一人。。。

今天是赵明福逝世三七纪念日。

这是由隆雪华堂民权委员会在二七纪念日主办让他成为最后一人 --明福追思会“的悼文。

这是一个没有政治演说,只有宁静而严肃、哀悼省思的追悼会,也给了明福最大的尊重。

我们也希望能唤醒群众对自2003年来在扣留期间逝世的1804人的关注。

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Khalid Jaafar在念诗文

为何我们今晚会在这里?为何我们不能忘记赵明福而继续我们的生活?

我们看见了眼泪。我们听到了祭文。我们都在葬礼现场,仔细地聆听赵明福未婚妻淑慧对明福的深深思念和不舍之言:

“你没有任何交待就离开我。你有很多地方想去,你答应要陪我一起去,现在的我该怎么办?怎么才能见到你,我的脑海一直想着你。我这几天都睡得不好,只想要和你道别。我答应你,如果有下辈子,我愿和你在一起。”

明福的死刺痛了我们每一个人的心。此时此刻,我们内心的伤痛和愤怒绝不能被遗忘。

现在,因为他的早逝,我们才都认识了他。明福的生命竟是如此的短暂。我们痛心疾首,哀伤难止。

我们多数人不认识他。少数有幸的成为他的朋友或同事。一些人或者读过他的文章。

为何我们今晚会来在这里?为何我们不能忘记赵明福而继续我们的生活?

许多话都已说了。一些承诺也已许下。反贪污委员会、行动党、皇家委员会、验尸庭、政治人物、警察、部落格。

我们可以安坐家中,推敲当天究竟发生了什么事。然后,我们关心新的课题。什么也没有改变。我们甚至可以说,什么也不会改变。

然而,我们非有改变不可,因为明福代表着“我们”。华人、马来人、印度人、原住民和“其他”。所有的人——马来西亚人。

不止如此,明福是一位儿子、一位丈夫、一位父亲、是我们之一…一位有梦想和抱负的年轻人。

为何我们今晚会在这里?为何我们不能忘记赵明福而继续我们的生活?

这一代人中,他是第一个在扣留中殒落的从政者,但他绝不是在扣留中死亡的第一人。他们说,从2003年算起,在他之前已经有1千8百零3人在扣留中死亡。1803并不仅仅是一个数目字,而是1803个名字。当中包括:

  • A Kugan,
  • Samiyati Indrayani
  • Zulkarnain Putra,
  • Francis Udayappan,
  • Tharma Rajan,
  • M Ragupathy,
  • Syed Fadzil Syed Ibrahim,
  • Hasrizal Hamzah,
  • Prakash Moses,
  • Kannan Kanthan,
  • Ahmad Salleh,
  • Ulaganathan Muniandy

然而,我们不知道所有死者的名字。唯有上苍知道。

而他们的家人也一定知道。

我们定今晚之追悼会为“愿他是最后一个”,是希望明福是最后一个死于执法单位扣留所的人。

但,不幸,他不是。

R. 古纳,31岁,是最新的受害者。他们说,他是一位瘾君子。但是瘾君子也是人。人都有可能脱胎换骨,重获新生。但他没有机会了。

所有扣留中的死亡事件,必须停止。而且必须有人负起责任。但是,谁呢?

我们长久以来一直对此沉默,难道我们没有罪衍吗?如果我们曾经怒吼,拒绝姑息暴力,明福与古纳今天应该健在。

为何我们今晚会会在这里?为何我们不能忘记赵明福而继续我们的生活?

因为,今天可以是赵明福。明天可以是你…我…我的孩子…你的女儿…任何人。

说了很多,我们还有很多事情可以做。在多做之前,今晚让我们少说。实际上,我们应该暂时避免喧嚣。为了使今晚的追悼更有意义,让我们选择沉思。

让我们一起静默,停顿、追忆、祈祷,并思索这一切的深意。

让沉思为我们找到力量与方向,为所当为,勇往直前。让沉思唤起我们生而为人的责任,以良知和信念为所有人谋求平安。

朋友们,当我们离开这里时,让我们选择仗义执言。我们不只要谴责权力的堕落,还要替那些欲喊无声的受害者发声。

如果今晚的主题“愿他是最后一人”不是虚词,今晚之后,我们再没有沉默的权利。

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1805个人之中,我们只知道约60个名字

英文追悼文 (原稿由Sivin Kit牧师草拟〕

Why are we here tonight? Why can’t we just get on with our lives and simply forget about Teoh Beng Hock?


We saw the tears. We heard the tributes. We were at the funeral. We were watching from a distance. We listened carefully when Beng Hock’s Fiancée Cher Wei spoke her heart:

“You left me without saying any last words. You said we still have a lot of things to accomplish together, that we have not been to many places before. You said you will always walk this life together with me.”

Our hearts broke. Beng Hock is gone. The pain is real. The anger cannot be ignored.

Most of us never knew him when he was alive. Some were fortunate to be friends. Others were fellow colleagues. A few might have remembered his articles in the papers.

Now, we all know him in his death. Our hearts are aching. Beng Hock’s life was cut short. The sadness will stay for a while – a long while.

Why are we here tonight? Why can’t we just get on with our lives and simply forget about Teoh Beng Hock?

A lot has been said. Some promises made. MACC. DAP. Royal Commission. Inquest. Politicians. Police. Papers. Blogs.

We may sit comfortably and compare theories on what could have happened. And then, we move on to another topic. Nothing has changed. We might even say nothing will.

But there must be change. Because Teoh Beng Hock is about “us”. All of us. Chinese, Malay, Indian, Orang Asli, Orang Asal – “dan lain lain” – All of “Us” – Malaysians.

More than that – “Beng Hock” was a son, a husband, a father … one of us – a young man with dreams and aspirations.

Why are we here tonight? Why can’t we just get on with our lives and simply forget about Teoh Beng Hock?

He was the first “political death” in custody in a generation’s time. But he was not the first to die in custody. They say 1,803 had died in custody since 2003 before him. It’s not just a number. These numbers have names. Here are some:

A Kugan, Samiyati Indrayani Zulkarnain Putra, Francis Udayappan, Tharma Rajan, M Ragupathy, Syed Fadzil Syed Ibrahim, Hasrizal Hamzah, Prakash Moses, Kannan Kanthan, Ahmad Salleh, Ulaganathan Muniandy

But we don’t have all the names too. God knows who they were!

The families sure know …

We title tonight “May He be the last”, hoping that Beng Hock would indeed the last one to die in custody.

But he wasn’t.

R. Gunasegaran, 31, was next. He was reportedly a drug addict. But drug Addicts are still human. And humans can always have second chance. But he will never have.

All these deaths in custody must STOP. And someone must be held responsible. But who ?

And are we not guilty for our silence all this while? Beng Hock and Gunasegaran should be alive now if we had spoken loudly enough to halt the deadly number.

Why are we here tonight? Why can’t we just get on with our lives and simply forget about Teoh Beng Hock?

Because, today it is Teoh Beng Hock. Tomorrow, it could be you . . . me . . . my son … your daughter … anyone.

A lot have been said thus far. There is so much more to be done. Before the next action, we need to speak less tonight. In fact, we need to get away from the noise for a short while. For tonight’s memorial to have meaning, the choice is ours to go deeper.

As we enter quiet moments together to pause, to remember, to pray and to ponder on what all these mean for us. We enter a silence where we the people can find strength and guidance to do what is right. A silence where we can decide to take up our responsibility as a human being with a conscience and conviction for the good of ALL.

So friends, when we leave this place. We will choose to speak out. Not just speak out against the abuse of authority and power, but speak for those whose voices cannot be heard.

After tonight, if we mean what we say – “May He be the Last” – we can no longer be silent –

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